Kurtis Johnson’s Blog

so i think this is the most stressed out i have ever been in my entire life. yup, heres an attempt at a serious blog. i hope this doesnt suck…..

ever since i have started working at The Anchor, (my church) i have just been a lot more stressed. everyone seems to be getting frustrated with the fact that i am a full time student and i play music at other places too, and that there is just not enough time in the day for me to make sure they are 100% happy. at the same time, i dont feel like i have been the best leader that i could be for this church. just little things that i forget to do are making it hard. example.. im supposed to have the song list emailed to everyone on monday so they can be prepared by thursday when we practice. and the past two weeks i just plain forgot. i wasnt being lazy, (i dont have time for that) i was just so busy with school it slipped my mind. and even though its something i should do, i dont feel like it should be the end of the world if i forget or email the songs late because everyone knows the songs already. another thing is, we havent had a consistent drummer. since i used to be the drummer, and now i sing and cant do both at the same time, that leaves me with the un-needed added stress of working that out. every one seems to get short with me when we dont have a drummer. but really, its not even my fault at all. trust me, i want a drummer but they dont just fall out of the sky or grow on trees. its dumb.

with me being so busy, i have been thinking that i cant handle the responsibility. it would be so easy for me to just play somewhere else and make money without all the responsibility. but then i think of it this way…….

I WAS NOT CALLED TO BE COMFORTABLE. God never said our journey with Him would be easy. every time i may think of quitting or giving up simply because I WANT something easier, i have to kick myself. there may be other hip churches that I PERSONALLY would rather be playing at because there i wouldnt have to do anything. but it isnt about me or what i want at all. it never was and never will be. this church needs me and for some reason God put me here and i cant just walk away from that because “its too hard” or “its too demanding.” now im not saying i will be there forever, but i need more of a reason to leave than just that. so i plan on working as hard as i can since God is the one who put me here. and that should mean something. not to mention, i do enjoy leading worship when it all comes together. its just been really tough with the lack of a consistent drummer. ha. i really do love this church and want to be apart of it. these are just the feelings i have sometimes and i needed to get them out. so if you read this, pray for me. comment if you want.

-kurtis

so its been a week since i wrote in here. and SO MUCH has happened! not really. but we played a show on friday and it was by far the best show we have had in a while. it was so much fun because all of our friends came out to see us. it was great. its a lot easier to rock out when people are into you. ha. other than that, nothing. i have been sick for like 2 weeks and it sux. i think im going to the doctor tomorrow. i hate the doctor because they just prescribe me to take motrin or something, which i already knew. but im actually going this time. there was not really any reason for me to write in here, but i did anyways. sorry for wasting your time. im going to sleep.

so i got robbed last night. no body held a gun to my head and demanded all my money, but i got robbed by the parking guy who just happens to be a gangster who rolls around in some 500$ car on 3000$ rims with a 2000$ stereo system. i parked in a parking lot outside of Georgia State so i could go hang out with amanda, when i came back out, there was a boot on my car. now, i got booted last week too, but it was different this time because i actually paid. last week they got me fair and square so it was ok. but this time i was rather angry that i had to pay another 50$ after i did the right thing and paid my parking dues.  before they empty the box where you put the money, they video tape all the money slots to show who paid and who didnt. and i watched the video, and the money i put in was not there.

i know exactly what he did. and im sure he does it all the time. he had to have taken my 3$ out of the slot before he video taped the slots. that way he makes 50$ and pockets every bit of it. so every time he steals 3$, he makes 50$. its messed up. hes gonna get it for sure. theres no other explanation because i know for a fact i paid, and amanda saw me do it. oh well, theres not much i can do now. all i know is i was already broke before i paid this thug 100$ in a week. now he has drug money and stuff. haha

since when is it about who has the coolest stuff? since when is it about who has the biggets PA system and the most sub woofers? since when was it about looking cool and being hip? and why do people look at worship leaders as idols or rockstars? haha (even though i look up to a few of these guys.)

my old youth pastor and great friend posted a blog i would like to quote.

“It’s disturbing that people actually know what David Crowder eats for breakfast, or how Kristian Stanfill packs his guitars, or Charlie Hall’s son’s middle name, or how much Donald Miller weighs. It’s all very weird. And dangerous. It’s not their fault; they’re doing what they do. They can’t help it that people like me are caught up in fame. (We all want a book deal, right?)” -Derek

haha its so true.

he also mentioned how he was at catalyst and they took 5 minutes to introduce a back up singer because it was the girl from hillsong. as awesome as that is……. theres not really any need to introduce back up singers is there?

there are some great churches that have been planted/started from some already financially stable churches.  we make it seem like they must be a better church than the one who started from nothing, without a big church to back them up, because they have more money. whatever. its all about about Jesus, the original churches in the bible days didnt have sub woofers and awesome PA systems and hip clothes. its all about Jesus and when it becomes more about the band, more about whos speaking, and more about what the stage looks like, thats when you have a serious problem. im not calling anyone out. im just as guilty as anyone. i guess this is my first attempt at a serious blog about God. (which is what blogging if for right?) im out.

-kurtis

so yea i still feel like crap. we played a show tonight and it was alright, nothing to spectacular, but still fun. i took a ton of Tylenol before we got to the show so i felt ok the whole time i was there i guess but now the medicine has worn off and i feel awful. and i have to lead worship in the morning at church. (i actually should say i GET to lead worship, not HAVE to lead worship. its quite an honor to get to lead others in worship and impact them in that way. and its cool for that to be your job.) now for all of you kids who found this of our Chris Coleman myspace, you probably saying… “what?? kurtis sings??” and the answer is yes. not as well as chris, but i do. haha.

so yea thats about it. nathan told me he was glad i write these things because this gives him something to read. and i read his a lot too. awww. now im just getting rediculous. im gonna go to sleep because tomorrow i get to see amanda who has been in Panama friggin City without me. and i miss her! goodnight!

-kurtis

so if any of you have ever seen my band play, you probably didnt hear my guitar because my amp was broken or something. not anymore. i got some new gear, including a new amp and… well… i guess thats it. its a fender prosonic and that thing cranks. so now i wont have to worry about whether or not my amp is working or not when we play. haha

if you havent ever heard us, come tomorrow. myspace.com/chriscolemanmusic for details. im bummed because my BOO cant be there because she is out of town. i miss her already. ok i know im lame…..

anyways, i guess thats it. nothing really important to say here, i just wrote this because i havent written in here in a while. so yea, thats it.

p.s.  im gonna try and do a serious and meaningful one soon!